(Letters to God, Journal 14, Book 1, 2012)
Lord, you are worthy. What more can I say? Teach me to pray "large prayers," the ones You want me to pray. I'm tired of the "old list" with the same people, places and events that have been davening for months into years ad nauseum. Things are going on down here, Lord. Hard things. Sharp things. Things that spike their poison in our hearts like daggers in the dark. Unsuspecting, but not totally unaware. We hear the roaring lion in the bushes while the night cloaks us in winds of change that certainly didn't bring hope.
I ask for a new dream. A dream that will encapsulate what you desire, what You hope for, what change You yearn for in us -- in me. More than I can imagine. More than I can conceptualize. Others say they want to do this or that in a big dream. Maybe the propensity to dream in divine imaginations has diminished into a miniscule, mono-focused microscopic speck, but it's still there. Blow on it in your laboratory of hearts where strength waxes strong, vision expands into VistaVision with technicolor dreams. For me, hard; for You, nothing in the complex vast structure of the universe. I'm still amazed how You can be so involved in everything in so grand a scale, and yet listen to a only little voice here on earth cocooned within her four walls typing away. Even to listen to my thoughts! Zowies. That's amazing. (And makes me watch my thoughts, thank you.)
But aren't these grand visions supposed to emulate a broadened scope to help humanity? I think I got it today, God, big time. I think I saw your wind words splayed in front of me stained by blood-splattered love with Your elegant, masterful script of grace. It is as vivid as King Belshazzar's feast with the handwriting on the wall, a portent, a warning, yet scripted with lavish love. We're not used to that. Judgment and grace mixed up like chicken salad for dinner. We tend to gravitate to either one or the other. But yet I live in a very troubled world that is on fire. Occupiers, so called, want to take over the world and fashion in their own arrogant world vision which has very little, if any, freedom in it, responsibility, morals in a new work totally devoid of "order."
Our economy, our land, our government, our society is has become corrupt and bankrupt and increasing by the second in a landslide falling into chaos. You know that. I need not remind. But, Lord, I know that in your word there is an answer. This is Your day of repentance and revival, right in the tent of wickedness that abounds in plenty, ignorance is worn as a mantel with pride and arrogance the adornment of choice.
Lord, right here. Right now. Cause me to see Your ways! Charge me with purpose, renewed resolve to accomplish by direct command, divine edicts from Your throne pinpointedly your desires, your will, your heart's passion for others that all can see who You truly are in wonder, beauty and the myriad colors of grace. Your beauty is astounding. Perfect. Multi-faceted in splendor and wonder. Maybe that's vision enough.
Yet Your people -- the ones using Your name, the holy name above all names -- do not fear and reverence You for who You are, have been, and will be. The here and now is skewed by those who do not treasure the lessons from those who have gone before. There's been warning signs before, harbingers of impending doom were sounded with trumpet clarity, silencing the social complacency and religious bigotry stamped with the seal of wickedness with sword-sharp truth. They are sounding once again right now. Lord, will we enter or with a scoff and smirk of defiant arrogance turn away -- yet again? I know you have set expiration dates on complacency, a termination hour of continual rebuffed invitations to embrace Your truth.
You know, the freeway signs? Signs to desired destinations direct one to their exit: 5 miles, 2 miles, 1 mile, this ramp only, last chance. Oh, God! We can either heed the signs of the times or we can continue with the crowds and face a far worse place than You ever desired for us. Some may say I sound fatalistic. I'd say, "Sure, you bet." They might even say this is just trying to write something sensational by some kooky woman with a bent. I'd have to say a resounding no to that. Truth has a death knell but in the midst of it is also a peal of joy. A two-edged sword.
So many think You're out to get them, Father. How sad. It's just straight-up facts that the signs are all around. You sent them. They're not coincidence or "just life," but they're warnings You Yourself sent in your graciousness to hold out a hand of love. Amazing. The signs heeded bring safety; ignoring them is suicidal. You are a royal being, a royal King who will not be denied. Your ways are final. I choose life, Lord. Life and death, blessing and cursing; Lord, I choose You. You're NEVER a dictator. Your kingdom is love.
But Your love is so red hot! Searing! Burn out the selfishness, self-righteousness, and carnal nature of man, Lord. Transform them into a royal son/daughter so filled with You that they are magnets of grace living in shoes of peace showing that through Your joy we're able to walk through any global crisis, criticism of not being "politically correct" and stand in righteousness with the power and might of heaven. Golden gladiators of grace.
quo and head-in-the-sand mentalities and bring sorrow. Yet, the time of our lies is now. Right this minute.
I know what my vision is clearly now. Crystal. I cry out in repentance. I know that no elected official can turn this nation around. No big shot, no charismatic one-minute wonder. Nobody can "fix it." You were abundantly clear in 2 Chron. 7:14. And I know it's not for everybody else I can think of; it's for me. I think I've made up my own version: If my people called by my name (those in covenant with you as in a marriage) will humble themselves and pray ... crave and go after You with crazy passion, stop the idiotic carnal strivings emulating the world and all its desires -- then I KNOW you will do what you said you would do: hear from heaven and heal our land, our nation, our beloved United States of America. It will be healed. That's the answer. Not the polling booth (yet, I thank you for that God-given privilege), not community awareness, programs of how we can go green, not a new governmental bailout (which is really usury and theft, freebies without responsibility), or a new pastor and seven new church programs that are a sure-fire crowd pleaser.
It's to be on our knees -- my knees, Father. I pray that others will join in on the call to repentance making 2012 the year of pleas on the knees. Praying for our country, for the church, His Body, for ourselves corporately and individually that we may be healed inside, outside, our land, and the world. The sign, the call, the clarion sound is being held. I hear it. I have chosen to walk in Your paths, Lord.
I don't want to be challenged that I am tone-deaf. I will accept Your hand outstretched in love. I know I'll be right on key.
Like a mighty ocean, the love of God rushes in waves to the soul with the knowledge of Himself. With unmerited favor we are meted out the most wonderful gift of heaven, love. For all that the world may tout as "love," there truly is none that can match the incomparable love of God for you.
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The photographer paused in his tour of his stunning photographs he had recently taken in the Middle East. One by one I was amazed at the story they told, one after another, singular and profound. One struck me with awe. A picture of two men walking arm in arm like a band of brothers obviously strengthened by their enjoined purpose, trekking in unity. The photo captured in that one moment a slice of time with high import. At first blush, you might not think this was anything odd. Two people walking out into the street with laughter on their faces, joy bubbling from their soul. But these were not just any two people: one was an Arab, one was a Jew. In today's world to say that is a paradox would be a huge understatement. Rival enemies. Centuries of inbred hatreds at odds with the one common element that could stop fear and violence cold and then with utter contempt cast it into outer darkness. Something that cannot be fully punctuated by articulate speech, but exemplified in the life of one simply poured into another by the rich, sweet nectar of divine fruit of the Spirit of God.
Love.
I thought to myself, wow, there it is. Loving one another. Who would have thought? Two Middle Eastern friends who individually chose to walk in righteousness refusing to look the other way or shun each other when opposing religious views and conflicts blocked their way. They held out a hand of genuine respect and love in friendship refusing to give evil even one scintilla of a foothold. That one friendship embodied an erasure of centuries of bigotry and violence, all held fast in a fragile envelope of righteous love.
Inside I was ecstatic that an Arab and a Jew had decided to take the ultimate life challenge. To love one another no matter what odds they faced. But as the evening progressed I was faced with a firmly-held bigotry of my own and, when confronted with it, I was shocked. I listened as a friend discussed his personal religious beliefs that ran contrary to my own. I have always had the highest regard for this person and how he challenged me to be rise strong in the Lord. His passion for the Lord was undeniable. His fervor to serve God in ways that I knew I had yet to express was infectious. I hadn't thought I had a religious spirit that rose stiffly in stone-cold arrogant pride, but the Lord graciously exposed it to me -- not to condemn, but that I might repent before Him. This friend was explaining how he wore "holy garments" (something I didn't know at the time) and that he felt they were no different than a Jewish man wearing a kippah. Yet, here I was realizing that the way he served the Lord in the denomination of his own choice -- a matter of the heart -- was causing me to lock myself in a prison of my own making. I had swathed his whole denomination with a battering ram of locked prejudice. I still disagree with their tenets, but it made me realize that "throwing out the baby with the bath water" is not God's choice at all. He has a timing for every person. Each life is different, each holds a diversity of expectations that the Lord has designed for each one. Singular in beauty and unique. His ways are not our own and every day is a startling and profound revelation to punctuate that point.
Division runs rampant throughout the globe -- no matter if Jewish, Christian, secular or pagan. There are sections that decry they are the favored group or they have the market on God's voice or revelation. God does not look at us as separate groups but only as those who love and serve Him and those that don't. But even those that don't, who chose to walk another path, He staunchly and adamantly refuses to leave His place where He was left standing. He remains in His place waiting for that beauty to expand that only He has right to embrace: the openness of a man's heart. Too often we rush in to try to baptize one another with our beliefs believing that if they live "our way" then they are safe. Actually, we may block, divert or even tragically abort what God had in mind for that person in our insistence that others walk in our path. As Dietrich Bonhoeffer once said, "Jesus himself did not try to convert the two thieves on the cross; he waited until one of them turned to him."
Our hearts are off limits to each other. We are not allowed to trifle them, stifle them, dominate or challenge with guilt like a sword trying to coerce upon another any cherished dogmatic belief. Hearts are a precious commodity and the Lord does not take kindly to abuse or bruising of the heart of one another. He told us the commandments are summed up in this: love of and to God and love of and to one another. Not feigned or played in pantomime. It simply is the way He loves us and that is how we are to treat one another.
In the parchment of His love He explains this extravagant love. "Watch, stand fast in the faith, be brave, be strong. Let all that you do be done with love." Prophets, Bible scholars, rabbis, and pundits all point to an impending financial crisis that will cripple the world. Countries crippled by debt are crumbling into a financial abyss while huge crowds incited by evil hatred and violence gripped in a frenzy the likes of which the world has never seen continue to hold sway in a global court of high treason. These are times. Perilous times. We are not to retreat. We are to hold fast. People are betraying one another, headstrong as granite, haughty and proud, yelling demands like brandished swords slashing others with arrogant and brutal words. People are yearning for what the Lord demands of us. Love.
Let me make a bold statement. I am a American, but I am not defined by my government. I am defined by the Lord I love and serve. I passionately love the Lord, but I am not to be segregated by others if my conviction does not match another person's closely-held belief. Our hearts belong to the Lord and not ourselves. We are to stand together with the utmost respect and unwavering integrity with that which the Lord provides: love unsheathed as a weapon of righteousness. Its cutting edge is sharp. It casts out fear and bathes the soul in soothing oil from the robes of God. And then with a softened hand of grace extended says, I will stand with you. I will love you. I will cherish you.
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It cannot happen this time. We cannot stick our heads in our denominational (or non-denominational or church group) and deny what is going on any longer. These are end times. And end times demand extraordinary stances of truth and courage. We are demanded to love. Cross our theological borders and stand firmly for righteousness. Mix our religious beliefs? Never. But we can hold hands of love standing together against evil. Romans 14 puts it this way: "Who are you to judge another's servant? To his own master he stands or falls. Indeed, he will be made to stand, for God is able to make him stand. One person esteems one day above another; another esteems every day alike. Let each be fully convinced in his own mind. He who observes the day, observes it to the Lord, and he who does not observe the day, to the Lord He does not observe it ... none of us lives to himself and no one dies to himself. For if we live, we live to the Lord and if we die, we die to the Lord. Therefore whether we live or die, we are the Lord's."
We cannot let evil run roughshod over our lives, our fortunes or our sacred honor. Not this time. Not this year, not next year, nor the year after that. We will let our voices be heard in loud shouts of love. We will not have another holocaust. We will not have ovens at the ready for human bodies for whom God gave His only son. We are told to walk in shoes of peace.
Recently I read again Corrie TenBoom's story, The Hiding Place. Corrie's sister Betsie always prayed for everyone, especially the tyrant guards. Her heart was the heart of God who aches and yearns for all to come to know Him. It was her one statement that has resonated with millions that still speaks today, "There is no pit so deep that God's love is not deeper still." Even in the stench of the pit of hell she was able to evoke love to its full extent. Standards of evil must be rooted out and eradicated by those who have the temerity when having done all to stand have stood for the King.
Today I listened once again to the Hallelujah chorus from Handel's Messiah. It never fails to bring tears to my eyes. Every time the refrain is heard my spirit soars as it reaches towards the Creator who made me, the one Who holds my heart in His hand. It says to me we will worship our precious King. We will serve Him at all costs. We will love our fellow man no matter where and who.
"Who will rise up for me against the evildoers? Who will stand up for me against the workers of iniquity? Unless the Lord had been my help, my soul would soon have settled in silence. If I say, 'My foot slips,' Your mercy, O Lord, will hold me up. In the multitude of my anxieties within me, Your comforts delight my soul. Shall the throne of iniquity, which devises evil by law, have fellowship with You? They gather together against the life of the righteous and condemn innocent blood. But the Lord has been my defense and my God the rock of my refuge. He has brought on them their own iniquity, and shall cut them off in their own wickedness; the Lord our God shall cut them off." (Psa. 94:16-23)
This is not the time for petty arguments. We can either walk in unending strife or in shoes of peace. This is the time for action. It's our last stand. The stand for love.
Invitations are interesting things that evoke polar opposite reactions: either gladness that a loved one will come or disgust with a desire that it could be tossed in the round file with a heave-ho, such as a "request" to appear for an IRS audit or jury duty that comes right on the very day you expect your guests to arrive.
There's one invitation that is the most coveted of all. Right in the midst of life at its busiest or worst, when things are flying at us with accelerated speed, truth is rare, lies are the seeming normalcy standard and we think we can't take one more arrogant bully stuffing their anti-God, anti-everything views -- there it is. An invitation.
But not just any invitation. One before you where you didn't expect it. Right in the middle of your life. In the center street where all the shouting voices and demanding schedules and vying for your attention intersects. The traffic light is now solid red. Everything and everyone has ceased. Your eyes rest on something in the middle of that intersection. A table. A table set with service for two. A marble table inlaid with solid gold. Crystal glistening in colors you've never seen. Ornate silver with filigree etched with your initials. A glistening white place card in elegant script with your name in exquisite pattern and beauty. Someone has taken a great deal of effort and outrageous expense to invite you to dine. But just who and, better yet, why?
He's a king. But not just any king. The King of all Kings. Jesus Himself. Another king long ago penned a beautiful song about this experience. He explained that the Lord invited him to dinner. And obviously he accepted because in his Jewish experience he explained it this way: He made the dinner. He poured the wine and then anointed me simply because He loved me. Because of that, I will follow Him anywhere. I live where He lives. I'll go where He wants to go and do what He wants to do. I cannot do anything else. I am smitten by His love. That's what Psalm 23 is all about. The essence of a God that pursues us, a heavenly seduction of grace.
There is a Jewish tradition called Havdalah where a cup of wine runs over onto a saucer underneath. It symbolizes sufficient enough to fill one's own needs and that of others. A prayer is given that the expression of hope that life's goodness and bounty will be as abundant as the wine that is being blessed. In Temple times when the burnt offerings and peace offerings were made an entire container of wine was poured onto the altar. It was an offering of thanksgiving, a praise to the Lord of Lords who always provides for our needs and, through us, others. Kiddush in Hebrew means designation, demarcating a person, place thing or time for a higher purpose. Also, when a guest is in a home and the host pours wine for the guest if the host wants to show high favor, acceptance and blessing, he will overflow the cup.
The new Thanksgiving season is here. A time to enjoy family and friends, to be thankful for the bounty the Lord has given. The harvest time is here. Many are turning to the Lord in numbers unheard of before. This is the time when the Lord will appear to all and bring us into His kingdom. He has done a lot of labor in the harvesting. But really -- the cream of His crop .... is you.
Be blessed this season. Embrace His acceptance and love as not just a nice warm fuzzy feeling, but a revelation of the gift of eternal life for you. He paid an enormous price for you because you are worth that much. You are a treasure of His heart. You are worth every stripe, every piece of silver, every abuse and torture He endured.
Look. His invitation is there. Right there at your fingertips. You may have said no before or you may have embraced His offer. Whichever it is, the time is extremely short. The call has gone out. It is a royal invitation. It cannot be ignored or treated with indifferent procrastination any longer. It's your choice.
It's time for dinner.
It can be discouraging, even daunting. Verbal assaults that assail from every angle. School bullies, workplace harassment, families at odds, even those who you thought were friends tear at the fabric of the soul. Days like that bolt down a soul with weighted chains. Some come through it, though not unscathed. Others are encased in a mire of words that have bogged them down to nearly unrelenting paralyzation to move forward with courage. Words can soothe or they can be hurled with such force and vengeance to abort even the staunchest braveheart.
No one said days like these would be easy. Even today in the middle of a town square or a city street with signs blazing and red hot vehemence here are voices that scream their so-called proclaimed rights to advantages they feel they deserve. In their disdain for those who work to support their families with values and strength, they long to abort the way of life of those that ordain their steps with truth, courage, and old-fashioned work. They flaunt their arrogance at Americans who look in the face of fear and don't flinch. Not one inch. They are the ones that will not budge at the hand of an economic abortion doctor who thinks that Communism, socialism, and the death of democracy is a healthy thing for a nation that is already teetering on the brink of an evil social abyss. With unswerving courage and a blazing fire of faith, they show the world every day there are ones who walk with integrity, righteousness and white hot truth.
There is one parent, though, that will not be denied, the One who will pluck His children from the hands of those who would try to pry them from their destiny and abort the plan of the universe. It's the Lord Himself, the one true God. He gave His Son with a high price so that he could claim His children as His own. No one will chase them from the planet. They may be imprisoned, maligned, slaughtered, denied, harassed, and assaulted verbally and/or physically but one thing is absolutely and irrevocably true: He is coming to get His children and His word will be the last word. His word settles it all. His words that are not convoluted, filled with half-truths or flat-out lies. They will not be ignored or disobeyed. All will know and all will have to bow their knee to the one that will have sovereignty. Complete and full.
You see, He planned it all. He planned you. He planned the way you are right now. You may think that because of situations in your life that everything has gone downhill at full tilt. Maybe you don't have a job, your marriage may have fallen apart, your family may be in alienation with unforgiveness like cancer that has eaten your soul to the very marrow of your bones. The ache of defeat and depression is very real, the outlook grim on all counts from the nation, from your individual life, and even from what you believe is a God that hasn't been listening in a very long time.
I'm here to tell you this: You are planned. You are valuable. You are immensely loved. Far beyond what you can even imagine. He has seen every struggle, observed every tear, heard every sigh and cry of your heart. He is listening. Cry out to him. You are His plan. He will never abort you. He will never tear you out of His heart. You will never be an after-thought, an "oops" or ignored. You are precious in every way.
Remember this: In John 16:27 it says, "The Father Himself loves you dearly..." That's a red letter edition of love. The one that speaks right to the heart. It's not an appeal to try to assuage you to believe simply because it's a "religious thing." In a world that's gone crazy and nuts, this is the real deal. It's plain and simple truth. It's right. Without hidden and crooked agendas. It brings peace when nothing else can. It's His word to you today.
You are planned. Let Him be the parent to you He has always desired. Give your heart to him unconditionally, without a Plan B. Throw away the doubts, the weird words that fly out there ... this is the day. This is the moment He says to you -- and me, too -- "Come! Be a part of the family, a nativity into the family of God."
You'll never regret it, not even for one ripe second. You see, you are in the plan ... conceived right there in the Father's heart.
It's the Jewish New Year this week, Rosh Hashanah. The Ten Days of Awe begin, the time for repentance, which end with the Day of Atonement. Peering into the looking glass of God's magnificent forgiveness is an endless pool of grace into which we are privileged to gaze. In Jewish teaching it is the anniversary of the creation of man, a time that God celebrates us. What a thought. It's a day to say thank you for the prerogative of enjoying God's blessings and benevolent forgiveness, giving us a chance to start anew, afresh, awash with His closeness of Spirit breathing into us His passion and love. It is also the Feast of Trumpets when shofars resound throughout the air pronouncing...
... the coming monarch. His Royal Majesty, Jesus Christ. Jewish teachers have taught, "Do you know what tomorrow evening is? Tomorrow will be Rosh Hashanah, and among Chassidim the night of Rosh Hashanah is called 'Karanatzia Nacht.'" Coronation night.
(Selah!)
The crowning ceremony of the King of Kings. It's not far off. He's coming. Lately I have heard, "Oh, but many things have to happen yet." Hum. Well, will you personally know the minute or the hour or the day? Will you know every detail, every fulfillment and you can say with finality and infinite wisdom that NOW is the precise moment and fulfillment and He can come any moment---well, that is, if you haven't been busy living life with all of its demands and stress it commands. When truly would one know? Remember this friends, he comes as a thief in the night. When you didn't really expect it. Just when you thought there were a "few more things that have to happen first" (or worse, secretly wishing it wouldn't be too soon because we want to do this or that). I sense that too many in the Body of Christ have a false sense of security thinking that there is "still some time left." We should live intimately and immediate in His presence so that at any moment (whether now or somewhere in the future) when His shofar is sounded, His voice is lifted in a shout, we will not be caught unawares.
This is the season of the Lord, the Coronation night. Whether He comes today or tomorrow or next week or beyond is not the issue; the extent of readiness within ourselves is paramount to being ready to walk into eternity with one breath. Literally one breath away. Think about it. Truly He longs for us with a passion we can never fully understand, a longing with an intensity that is beyond description, and a love that is immeasurable.
Long for Him. Look for Him. Listen for His words breathing life through you and then in the silence He Himself will listen with ardent fervor. He'll listen for very special words that bring about this most spectacular gathering of lovers of God. The very words He longs to hear.
"The Spirit and the Bride say ...come, King Jesus." The coronation celebration is about to begin! Come!
Rosh Hashanah 5772!
"My mommy can bake great big cakes that look like turtles!" Marta said with childish pride. "As big as a table! For my birthday she made me a big, big cake. It was a turtle. The frosting was kinda yukky green but it tasted good."
Kevin never one to be outdone stood up in his full four-foot frame, stuck out his willowy chest and declared, "My daddy can do anything! It doesn't matter what it is or where. He can do anything!"
Anything. A selah word, don't you think? (Selah: Hebrew for stop and listen.)
Simple as a child. His was a trusting belief that was singleness of heart, steadfast in thought, and executed with clarity. Faith doesn't have to be convoluted nor trust a Jello-pudding experience when push comes to shove with life's challenges. A king once said, "Unite my heart to fear your name." In other words, "Make me single-minded so that I can be so convinced that you'll take care of everything simply because of who You are, God. Boy, I can't do this on my own. I always make a muck of it. My heart is splintered by trusting in wrong things. Mend me, Lord."
And "fear your name." Know what "fear" is? In the fear of the Lord it's simply displaying a royal protocol to approach the Lord. It's having a reverence for His majesty. Let me put it this way. If I was called to court today -- the closest analogy being the Queen of England in today's parlance -- I really don't think I'd show up with shorts, a baggy sweatshirt, hair all askew, unbathed for a week smacking chewing gum. I'd prepare myself properly to meet her in mind, heart, and speech. I wouldn't be afraid or fearful -- but I'd certainly have respect for her and for her court. Once I presented to her my request (if any) if she proclaimed an official edict over me and gave me the papers to prove it, I'd have no hesitancy believing it would be carried out down to the last letter.
Thing is, the King of the universe did the same thing for you. He prepared everything for you down to the last letter. He paid a price for you. A heart-stopping price. (You're that valuable.) And He will turn over heaven and earth if you will trust him. He gave an edict, He pronounced a covenant over you, and gave the papers to prove it. You're a card-carrying royal. There's no need to worry or fret, pout or complain, whine or be depressed. Implicit virgin trust can turn out to be your life's most surprising and valuable gift. When all's said and done there's only one thing to say with absolute confidence:
My Daddy can do ANYTHING! Believe it. You have His word on it.
"For with God nothing is ever impossible and no word from God shall be without power or impossible of fulfillment." (Luke 1:37 Amplified)







